The Gift of Embodiment: Feeling Again After Numbing Out
By Misty Lamppa
For a long time, I couldn’t really feel.
Yes, I had emotions. I had reactions. I had thoughts racing through my mind at all hours. But when it came to actually being in my body, I just… couldn’t access it.
I was doing. Managing. Pushing through.
I wore my productivity like an honor badge and called it strength.
But underneath the surface, I was disconnected—from my body, from my feelings, and honestly, from myself.
I didn’t know how much I had numbed until I began to feel again.
Yoga Was the First Door
Yoga was my first taste of embodiment.
Something about being on the mat allowed me to soften just enough to feel something—sometimes joy, sometimes grief, sometimes just the simple rhythm of my breath.
But here’s the thing: I’d step off the mat… and the disconnection would return.
There was such a stark contrast between my practice space and the rest of my life.
And deep down, I knew I wanted to live in that feeling of presence—not just visit it.
Inner Alignment Helped Me Go Deeper
When I entered the Inner Alignment program, I wasn’t expecting what happened.
The tools weren’t just about mindset or healing old stories (though that was part of it). They were about getting underneath the thoughts—into the body, the sensation, the truth.
Through somatic processing, I learned to pause.
To breathe.
To ask: What’s underneath this?
What’s underneath the anxiety?
What’s underneath the anger?
What’s underneath the resistance?
And sometimes what was underneath… was sadness. Or fear. Or old wounds I thought I’d already dealt with.
But every time I stayed present, every time I didn’t turn away, I reclaimed a part of myself.
Feeling Again Was a Gift
And let me be honest: it wasn’t always comfortable.
There were times I wanted to check out, shut down, dissociate, distract.
But now, I can feel. I mean really feel—grief, love, tenderness, beauty. It’s all there.
And with it comes a deeper relationship to myself… to my kids… to the people in my life.
I’m more sensitive now—and I no longer see that as a weakness.
I see it as sacred.
Because when we numb the hard stuff, we also numb the joy.
And I’m here for the whole range now.
If you’ve felt stuck, shut down, or just disconnected from your body—please know you’re not alone.
You’re not broken.
There’s nothing wrong with needing to survive.
But there’s also something waiting for you on the other side of numbness.
And when you’re ready, embodiment will be there—quietly, gently, offering you the gift of feeling again.